When I was a little girl, I used to daydream a lot. I still have a tendency to do this. And, honestly, I believe that has a lot to do with my personality. I’m an ENFP, just in case you were wondering.
As a little girl, I would daydream about my future, about my condo in San Diego and my view of the ocean from Downtown. I daydreamed about meeting “my prince” or whatever you called him. And, I constantly envisioned what life would one day look like.
We all have those fairy tales that we constantly read, but one day, we also quickly recognize that life isn’t a fairytale. We might have chapters of fairytale like moments, but in reality, we live in a storybook that doesn’t guarantee the easy road or the happily ever after we have already written and set in stone in our personal daydreams.
Currently, I am in an interesting season in my life. I feel like I have just finished Part 2 of a Part 3 book. I’m beginning not only a new chapter, but a new phase as I enter my Senior year of college. This isn’t a fairytale. It’s reality.
One year from today, I will have graduated from college. I will be working full time somewhere. I might be in California. I might not. I might be in a relationship. I might not. I might be living in my own apartment. I might be rooming with four other girls. There are a plethora of questions that I face. And, as I turn the chapters to skip ahead, I realize that my answers won’t be found in Part 3 of the book. There is a sequel novel being written. I can’t skip chapters.
Over time, My daydreams have shifted. I now daydream about the places in ministry I will go, and the steps I will take in faith to fulfill that every day mission.
While I still would love to have that beach side apartment and for someone to walk alongside me and lead me, my ultimate desires have changed.
Yes, I very much so desire to do life with someone who shares my passion for spontaneous every day adventures, travel, and music, but most importantly, I pray for someone who shares my passion for souls, for knowing and loving people well, and for living for every moment, not just one day of the week.
It’s true that I don’t need much to make me happy. God has blessed me with so much. I’m pretty minimalistic. I recognize that more and more every day. Side note: It would be difficult to go without trips to coffee shoppes. But, I suppose it’s possible.
Back on track. Here’s the thing. Our culture has poured into people’s minds that they need that someone (that daydream) to fulfill a hole or give them that fairytale they have always hoped for. I guess I’m here to tell you that while I, also, desire these things, I also know that the relationship you long for, the dream job you are applying for, and the dream house you just bought won’t be the answer or the concluding chapter of your book.
It’s a fairytale. It’s a void.
I’m here to say that in these moments of waiting, of wandering,of pondering, you need to realize that your story is being written here and now. It isn’t a fairytale that just exists in the future.
Commit your works to God and He shall direct your paths. He’s the void. He’s the fairytale that isn’t just a “sounds too good to be true” type story. He’s the real deal. When you get a hold of it, your dreams begin to change. Your desire and reasons for a relationship will also change. And, suddenly, you are asking and praying “wherever you Go, I will follow.”
That is my prayer in this upcoming year. People ask me aren’t you scared? As a matter of fact, I’m not. God has a greater purpose in all things and I truly believe the best is yet to come.
He is writing my story. He is writing yours. They aren’t fairy tales. They are our stories. Realistic, beautiful, raw, authentic, broken, put together, heart wrenching, amazing, unique, wonderful and speechless stories.
Don’t compare your story to the next. Don’t constantly sit through life wandering when your “prince” will arrive, when you’ll land your dream job, or when you’ll finally travel the world. Live every moment to the fullest, embrace your story and go on adventures, conquer mountains and valleys that strive after God’s own heart and seek His specific plan for your life as a disciple and carrier of His gospel.
And, one day,someone who shares your same passions, burdens and visions will come alongside you and lead you in your story. And, if he doesn’t, you’ll be okay. Because, my version of the fairytale has recognized what true love is. We already have the greatest love. If His love is at the center of our lives, our stories are an open book, ready to be written upon.
Don’t wait for a fairytale. Our stories weren’t meant to be fairy tales. They are each unique and wonderdul, divinely written to be a part of His plan and purpose for fulfilling the greatest commission. There may be fairytale like moments along the way, but always remember that isn’t our sole purpose, that isn’t the main reason why we are alive. God is the author. Will you let Him write the next chapter? He knows how your story goes, so trust Him with each turning page. I know we grow in anticipation and we just want to know the end already, but enjoy the process, enjoy the reading of every page and learn to read between the lines, allowing Him to reveal things to you every day that you would have never recognized had you just been rushing through the book.
There will be ups and downs, there will be frustrations, there will be moments of wanting to just skip ahead, but slow down, live in the pages of today, and trust God with every chapter.
One day, you’ll look back and the mystery of past chapters will suddey all make sense. It’s not a fairytale. It’s His story. Your story.